I’ve been thinking about moving back to NC. The only reason why I haven’t done it is because Destiny lives with my mother and she won’t be coming with me and I don’t want her to feel as though I’m leaving her behind. Even though I don’t see her much, she is to busy with her life and friends. Plus, she don’t like where I live, it’s boring and I never have any extra cash to take her any where. 
But still, I don’t want her to feel bad. She won’t say anything, but I know she will be thinking about it. I mean I would come visit her and they can come to NC, but it wouldn’t be often since it’s almost a 8 hour drive and trust me. It’s a LONG ASS drive that no one wants to drive. But one of my friends in NC said I need to be happy. I’m not happy here in KY and haven’t been for 2 yrs now. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m not with the right guy who can make my life great, or if it’s the people I meet and so called friends. But whatever it is, I’m so unhappy and want to be happy so bad.
I just don’t know what to do
My van is soon to be in my name since I’m divorced and all. That’s the only reason why it’s in my fathers name. It’s been paid for for 2 yrs. I’ve been looking at auto insurance reviews all last night. But I got tired and fell asleep. The insurance my parents have is to high for me. I can not afford another bill right now. So I’m not to sure what I’m going to do. Not only that but my van needs a fuel pump. And those are 300 bucks. Something I can’t afford. So I do not know how to go about doing all this changing around crap right now.
I have to get my mind and money right first. And that’s hard right at this point.
So I don’t know when to start buying things for the baby. I want to wait until I’m about 20 weeks when I’m hoping to find out the sex of the baby. I’m thinking boy because of the US pics. It looks like there are boy parts. But don’t want to get my hopes up and buy boy stuff and turn around and it’s a girl.
But I can stock up on diapers and bottles, blankets (since it will be winter when it’s born), just stuff like that. I don’t want to stock up on to many diapers because you never know how long they’ll be in a size newborn or even 1.
I need idea’s!
My father isn’t doing so good with his pain. He has to take pain meds all day long. He don’t drive much anymore because the meds make him sleepy. So my mother drives more often now. I know she would rather not, but what can she do now.
They’ve been talking about term life insurance and I’m not sure she knows I know, but I think it would be a great idea in case something does happen to my father. Because she is not able to work herself and she would need help supporting herself. Makes you wonder about life sometimes, doesn’t it?
My father has worked all his life. 3 jobs at once. He felt really bad about not being able to work and take care of his family. But I think he’s enjoying his life without having to go to work and being in even more pain then what he was in.
By now, some of you know I’m having another baby in late December 2010. This will be my 3rd child with a December birthday. Funny huh? Well after this child, I’m getting my tubes tied, burnt, whatever it takes for this not to happen again. And, I don’t care what anyone thinks. Yep, this is my 5th child and I never thought I’d have 5. But life must go on.
I’m working now. I started last week. My pay checks will be great and can’t wait to get one LOL. I work from 9am to 5pm, Monday-Thursday and Friday I have a class and also to make up any hours I’ve missed M-T. I like working, but my back HURTS ALL the time. I think after the baby is born, I’m going to see if I can get my boobs smaller. I wish I would’ve done it yrs ago, but was to scared. NOW? I’m ready for it. I’m also losing weight. Yes, I know it’s not good because I’m pregnant, but as long as I eat right everything will be okay.
I will no longer be doing paid blogging after this month. I know It’s extra money, but now that I’m working and have 3 kids to handle, a house to clean, I won’t have time. I’ll be to tired to even think about doing it.
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